Goodbyes

Why are goodbyes so long and drawn out?

On the phone: "Well, thank you so much for calling."

"Yeah, it was really nice to talk to you."

"Yeah you too!, have a good day"

"you do the same!"

"OK talk to you later!"

"OK bye!"

"Bye"

See how unnecessary all that was. Simplified version:

"Well, gotta go, bye!"

(Hang up)

In the car: "Thanks for dropping me off!"

"No problem!"

"Tonight was fun, see you tomorrow!"

"OK bye! I love you!"

"I love you too! Drive safe!"

"OK I will thanks!"

"Welcome! Bye!"

"Bye!"

Simplified version:

"Thanks, bye!" (Door shut)

Look how much time, gas and cellphone minutes you save!

There are always exceptions, like when you are flirting with a cute guy and you need to go but you don't want to. For example "It was really nice talking to you."

"I feel the same!"

"I really have to go."

"So hang up!"

"You hang up first!"

"No YOU hang up!"

"No YOU!"

"No, no NO! YOU hang up!"

"OK on the count of three! ONE!"

"TWO!"

"THREE!"

"You didn't hang up did you?"

"NO! hahahahahahahahahahhahahahhahaheheheheHOHOHO!"

That is completely acceptable. When it comes to future relationships and possible romances, take as long as you want. If not...... JUST SAY GOOD BYE ALREADY!!! If you are one of those "I don't believe in goodbyes" kind of people, WALK AWAY. If the other person is offended, that is a personal issue they need to work out on their own. Probably an insecurity.

Bye.

Serenade

(Inspired by the poetry slam, those things make you think and WRITE!)

Sing me a sweet melodic serenade like none other.

Sing from your heart words you've collaborated with your brain.

Sing me rainbows of hymns filled with desire and passion, that no one's heard.

Sing from your memory words you've accumulated with the present.

Sing that song you've wanted to sing for so long.

Sing me rhymes of lust, love, life.

Live

Life

Loving

ME

Only me.

Wake UP!

People don't realize...

That there is someone ALWAYS watching when:

You pick your wedgie and/or nose (hopefully not at the same time)

There is a mirror, reflective window or any other reflective surface and you check yourself out

You take a nap on campus or anywhere for that matter

There is a major public display of affection

There is a loud laugh

You feel good and you KNOW you look good

That when you fall/trip:

People are laughing, on the inside and out

People avoid your path of choice that led to the fall

Empathy immediately takes affect by using such words such as, "ouch" or "That's gotta hurt"

You probably aren't going to have the best day

No matter who you are, you are literally PISSED off

You feel awful and you KNOW you look awful

That when you drive:

The windows ARE transparent

People/drivers ARE judging you

This means you should be done getting ready and NOT putting on mascara, wearing a towel and... Breastfeeding?!?!

You cut me off, I will follow you home

Playing rock/paper/scissors is the funnest game to play with the car next to you

You think you are a good dancer but don't KNOW other drivers will beg to differ

That what goes around comes around when:

You spit out gum on the sidewalk/street/desk/wherever, it will find you

You talk behind someones back or to their face

You lie

You help someone with homework, crossing the street or up when they fall

You are loud keeping your neighbors/roommates up

You steal

You think you are the shiz

People don't realize...

Poem

This is a poem, entitled Poem.

Here I am

Writing a poem

And not doing what is at the top of my priority list

because I am writing a poem

There I was

Writing a poem

And not doing what was at the top of my priority list

because I was writing a poem

Here I am

Finished with my poem entitled Poem

with nothing done from my priority list

because I wrote a poem

Freezing Fog

Today I woke up to the "freezing Fog," as is called by USU. A dark cold day, but a great day!

Instead of listening to music as I walked to school I listened to people, cars and wind, the music naturally made by everyday life. If I did listen to music like always, I wouldn't have heard the exact moment one car hit another. For that brief moment, I was happy I didn't have a car.

Instead of paying attention in class I let my mind wander. I like this. My mind takes me so far away from reality, for that brief moment, I was completely content with life. They say when this happens you are "outside of your mind" but I think I was definitely very consumed in it!

Instead of doing homework in the hour break I had between classes, I attempted to take a nap. I lay down on a couch, in a hall where quite a few students pass. I couldn't sleep except for a brief moment.

Instead of going to the gym and working off the many calories I eat in a day, I went grocery shopping, only to eat some more. I mooched a ride from a friend who claimed it felt like we were married. For that brief moment I was... well, I really didn't know how to respond to that.

Instead of doing homework, now that I was done for the day of classes, I played guitar for 3 hours. I sang about anything and everything, at the top of my lungs, without a care in the world. For that brief moment I was amused. The walls in my apartment are paper thin and ALL my roommates were home.

Instead of paying (fully) attention to the "State of the Union," I fell into my mind again. For that brief moment, I hoped that no one in the room could read my mind and see how immature I really can be.

Instead of listening to (Zacks sad) music, I played truth, a game that I can so rarely be COMPLETELY honest in. For that brief moment I felt vulnorable, revealed and relieved. I love that game.

Today I will sleep in this "Freezing Fog." It is dark and I am cold but it was a great day.

Things that make me smile

A guy walking his walk with his head phones in singing and slightly swaying to himself. At that brief moment he was happy. At that brief moment I was happy too.

Someone smiling to themselves or better yet literally laughing out loud. Smiling and laughing really are contagious. Spread the word, or smile.

A truly unique style. I saw a woman wearing a bohemian skirt with pants underneath and leg warmers on top and tennis shoes. She's got style. haha

City and Colour, a band.

Bon Iver, another band.

Guster, the BEST band.

A couple in obvious, newly discovered love. I LOVE love.

A couple that has been in love for 50 years. When I see a wrinkly, grey grandpa and his wife walking on the side walk with their hands clasped tight, still laughing at each others jokes, it makes me whole week.

Friends. Friends really are family you choose for yourself. I don't know what I would do without the constant shoulder to cry on and the things my greatest friends do to make me laugh.

A stranger's hello. No one says hello or waves anymore like in those old 1950's movies except for my family. I guess we really are old fashion. But it isn't so bad in black and white is it?

Slipping, falling, PLUMMETING, laughing. Tis the season for the occasional bump on the head and bruise on the butt. It hurts but its funny.

Discovery, adventure. Trying something new every day. Like a midnight bike ride.

An unexpected hug. Wearing a shirt that says "Free hugs" is fun and everything but wouldn't you rather have a hug that was completely unexpected and not for the reason of putting a "kick me" sticker on someones back?

P eople. People make me laugh. I consider myself very independent. I can live on my own, take care of myself, I don't need anybody. But in this sense, I am dependent. I feed off other's energy, foolishness, happiness, sadness, anger, etc. People are wonderful. Look around. Notice all kinds of different people, uniquely sculpted and constructed. People make me smile, everyday. :)

The best things in life...

aren't always fun, but down the road seem VERY funny.

make me laugh.

and sometimes cry.

anger joins in every once in a while.

aren't free.

aren't predictable.

are sometimes things you don't realize are the 'best things in life' till they're gone.

can surprise you.

The best things in life aren't always the best things in life but they make us who we are, that's why they really are the best things because no one can change you except for you and you are unique because of these things.

What WAS I thinking!?

My dad bought this "inverted incline" thing. It is supposed to help relieve pain on his two herniated discs.

I just got back from the gym with a sore back. I thought I would try this thing out. With no super vision whatsoever. Well, my mom was upstairs, thank goodness!

I set it up, stepped up and swung backwards. I was up side down and it felt great. After about a minute and 15 seconds of blood rushing to my head I thought I better flip right side up.

I got stuck up side down. Luckily God blessed me with a loud voice, small mouth, but loud voice. I yelled "MOM!? Uh... I'm stuck." She was oh so conveniently on the phone with my big sister. I yelled again. This time my voice was a little more faint. "Mom... come here... please."

She finally heard me about the 6th time yelling impatiently. Apparently I scared her half to death. Not to death, just half. Maybe that's why she was so low on energy... she is running on half a life.

Anyway, she helped me down and yelled at me, "WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!?" uh Sorry?

*You know, I never know how to respond to that question. Is it rhetorical, or does the questioner really want to know what I was thinking at that moment? Usually it consists of me 'thinking' I can do anything.

Bad words

Ever notice that all those "bad words" all start with D? I don't mean bad like curse words but all the ones like... Death... SEE! Here is just a few...

Die
Death
Destruction
Devastation
Demon!
Devil
Devour
Demented
Deformed
Doughnuts
Deranged
Denial
Dentist!
Dirty
Dirty Diapers
Desperate
Darkness
Dam, Damn and or Damned
Dustin (this one guy... definitely evil!)
Deduction
Demoted
Destroyed
Demolished
Dawson's Creek (yeah it's a show... but...)
Damaged
Disaster
Disease
Doom
Derail
Disco
Depression
Dreadful
Dreary
Dandruff
Date
Dates
Dating
Debt
Decapitation
Decay
Deceased
Difficult
Detour
Deception
Despair
And worst of all....

Diarrhea

Checking myself out = not such a good idea

I don't find myself "super model" material but I have those days where I put effort into what I look like that day. Sometimes it turns out well. I feel good, which results in my cocky attitude of "I know I look good."

When I am in this self-absorbed mood not only do I take several "myspace" pictures of myself (you myspacers and facebookers, you know what I mean, we all have 'em) but I check myself out. I look in the mirror and move in several directions, smile a bit and pretend I am the hottest thing next to Jessica Alba. haha... anyway...

One day I was checking myself out. The mirror that reflected my image just happened to be at the top of the stairs. I was walking down. I didn't take my eyes off the mirror and I attempted to "runway walk" down the stairs.

I didn't quite run but I fell WAY down the stairs. Checking myself out = not such a good idea.

It was a humbling experience. But I don't learn.

Another one of those days and I was in the bathroom with the door that decides to shut any time it pleases, no set schedule, no warning. The door was open when I started flaunting my new outfit in the mirror. Then when I turned right to leave the bathroom I was STILL LOOKING AT MYSELF!

I ran into the door that decided to close right then. Checking myself out = not such a good idea.

Oh but then I go to the gym. There are mirrors everywhere! Now I don't know if they are there so people see themselves and think "looking good!" which then motivates them more. Or so people can see how disgusting they really look which in turn, motivates them. So I guess it's good...?

I was running on the treadmill, ok not running, jogging. I saw myself in the mirror and I honestly wanted to see how I ran. I always see people running really funny, I just wanted to know if I was one of them. So I checked myself out and tripped some how on the treadmill.

The gym was busy that day. Checking myself out = not such a good idea.